My friend Kathy came to visit me for several days and on one of them I showed her the dvd from the re naming of the Wynyard Airport to W.B. Needham airport that happened August 27, 2011. It provided a good snapshot into my family. I had not seen it since shortly after it was produced.
Well.........the whole dvd I find rather emotional but I went over the top with tears when I saw Lee and heard her voice. She did the blessing at the start of the ceremony and when I heard her voice I moaned and choked and was racked with tears. I had not heard her voice for such a long time. Hearing her voice is one of the things I miss about Lee the most.
When I first watched that dvd Lee was alive- very much alive and we watched it together. This time I was extra emotionally charged so paid more attention to it and saw glimpses of her through out the whole production. Like when she got up to get a piece of celebration cake.
I am so glad I watched it with Kathy as she completely understood and 'got it' from her widowhood perspective. Kathy lost her partner 2 years ago to cancer and she too misses Judy's voice. It was so good to be able to recover from the shock with her as she had a real sense about what I had just experienced.
Note to anyone who has yet to experience the loss of a partner- get your voices recorded some how some way. I can go through all my photos, through my bag of her favorite western shirts, read all the cards she saved from me and I can make a connection with her but her voice was never there.
Throughout this mourning /grieving process I have spoken to many about missing her voice. Quite frankly it didn't register with me that I had it sitting right here under my nose.
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