Turning Point

I think I have passed a turning point in the acceptance department. Yesterday I received a letter from the United Church of Canada- a generic letter yet addressed to Lee and a booklet explaining pension benefits for 2012. I called the 1 866 # to tell them to take her off the mailing list.

 

 

I talked to a very pleasant yet hard to understand person. I said 'Please don't send Lee any more mail. Why? Because she is dead, I said. Well that startled both me and the man. He needed to take my name and an explanation and I found myself forcing patience and actually becoming angry. I held it in and talked through gritted teeth and breathed. In the end I asked ' By the way, what do you know about the death benefits and pension money I am to receive?" Well, that threw him for a loop and of course he could tell me zip. He would have to talk to someone else and was unable to transfer the call to another person I could actually talk to and GET the answer. I usually get through to people to want to talk to but not this time.

 

Someone in Regina has put some grease to the wheels so something should happen sooner than later.

 

So the turning point for me is I am now believing Lee has died. I am accepting this truth and the shock is lessening. 

Its simply another stage I suppose. It really helped today to have a great conversation with my Wolesley friends over lunch. I always have REAL conversations with them. 

 

I just had a great Skype conversation with Bunny!! She was my first! another learning....