March 14 ........3 years ago you died. I cannot believe it! How time flies by.
I often imagine you showing up one day and walking in the door surprised at all the changes. You would have that cheeky crooked smile and sparkles in your eyes. I would show you those changes and you would smile widely.
A couple weeks ago I attended the death of a friend. The experience so reminded me of your death- the breathing, the slowing down the final breathes. The quiet....the sadness and the relief.
The rawness of your loss is gone. I was able to be totally present at my friend's death. I had little emotional attachment as I did with you. I was able to be there in support for her life partner and I learned a lot about myself. I am capable of doing it again. Attending a death of a loved one.
I think we often limit ourselves perhaps out of fear. I am glad to know I can do it so when the time comes for another death I will be ready and able to deal with it. I know I can do it and it will all be OK.
I believe we are so much more capable that our wildest imagination. Bring on life.. it's meant for living passionately. Peace to you Lee.
